If ever I had something to runfess, it is now, when I have to seriously consider adjusting my fitness goals.
Let’s join up with Marcia’s Healthy Slice and talk it out on this Black Friday.
I runfess….
That I am still very much in shock that I broke my leg. We are seven days in, and it’s still such a blur. I’ve had a few outings, but I’m spending the majority of my days in bed or on the couch. Even simple trips to the bathroom, 20 feet away, are exhausting. This is not how I roll.
I runfess…
That I am scared. I am scared of surgery (it’s a control freak thing), and the new pain on the horizon. I am used to the current pain so it’s manageable, but I know it’s going to hurt more and differently. Knowing myself, I think I’ll be able to handle it better if it’s a means to a productive end, but I’m not excited about it.
I runfess…
That I am a little bitter and jealous, which is NOT a good look. I am so happy for all my friends who are crushing their goals and running their hearts out at races, but I really wish I was there with them. Part of the “adjusting fitness goals” plan is getting out to upcoming events to volunteer and support, even if I can’t walk or run. I was hoping to do it yesterday at the Turkey Trot I was supposed to run, but I wasn’t mentally there yet.
I runfess…
That I am a little worried about lapsing back into disordered eating. I have been “recovered” for over a decade, but now that I can’t do the kind of physical activity to which I’m accustomed, I’m terrified of packing on pounds. My appetite has been nonexistent since the accident (I’m sure because of the medication), but I have been trying to eat the meals that are served, and not worry about numbers on the scale. I hate even admitting this is on my mind, but I also strive to be honest with my readers. It’s just another layer to a nasty situation. The goal is to get healthy and strong again, and adjusting fitness goals means I have to keep that in mind.
I runfess…
That I am about to get very friendly with Pinterest and YouTube for upper body workouts. Currently, my daily exercise consists of getting myself up and down the stairs (triceps and glutes are on point, friends). We have a “Buy Nothing Project” in my area, so I plan to see if anyone is gifting heavier dumbbells to help me out. I can lift as long as I’m not putting any pressure on my injured leg, so might as well put my spare time to use.
I runfess…
That I’m not much of a Black Friday shopper. I don’t like shopping in general, so being out and about with all the crowds just isn’t my jam. However, I guess since I’m sidelined, I might as well check out some of the cyberdeals and order presents, since I’m obviously not going to be able to go out and get them myself.
So I’ve bared my soul to the blog world and there you have it.
What do you have to runfess?
Are you finding any great Black Friday deals?
Oh, no! I didn’t realize your leg was broken, Jenn! I am so sorry. I am sending good thoughts your way for your upcoming surgery. I hope you can start to do at least some sort of physical activity soon.
I am with you on the Black Friday thing. No way am I shopping today!
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Yup. Happy holidays to me, right?
Black Friday is the worst! Great deals if you can get them, but the worst all the same.
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I feel so sad for you. Probably more than most people because I know exactly what you are going through.
I wish I knew someone then because it would have lessened my stress.
So believe me when I tell you that YOU WILL BE FINE!!
The surgery will painful but think of it as the first a step in healing.
I never got a walking cast. I was no wait bearing for 6-8 weeks and PT for 4-5 months I think.
So I was not very mobile but they told me without the cast, I would be back to running sooner (less PT because it was removable and I could flex my foot and ankle). So you know what I chose.
I was bad about the crutches esp on stairs…I did a lot of hopping…DO NOT!! I wound up with a stress fracture in my good foot. I also probably started walking and running sooner than I should have.
Ask me anything. I’ve been there. The worst time of my life but I got through it and you will too.
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Oh gosh. And here I thought the recovery from my tonsillectomy was the worst. Ugggggh. Let me get my surgery date and then i’m sure the messages will start. I’m in so much limbo right now and I just can’t get my head straight. <3
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I think it’s great that you are already planning out what upper body workouts you can do. You are already doing an amazing job at adjusting your plans.
I’ll be sending prayers and positive vibes your way for your upcoming surgery.
I’ve got to do something. A person could go crazy like this.
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I’m bummed for you Jenn and so very sorry this happened. BUT don’t give up hope. Two of my running friends + Darlene went through this and came out the other side able to run and thrive. I love that you’re already figuring out what you CAN do. I’m thinking of you and sending you continued healing vibes. xoxo
Thank you. So many people have reached out with advice, love and support and it’s been so helpful.. I’m basically housebound right now so it helps knowing I’m not alone.
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I’m so sorry for all you’re going through. If you’re anything like me, your worries about the surgery and post-op pain are worse than the reality will be. This is a tough time of year to be sidelined but you are so caring, it’s ok to let others care for you for a change. As for eating, I know it’s a challenge but your body really does need those nutrients to heal!
The boys (and our family and friends) are taking such good care of me and I am so appreciative for that. I think the post op is going to be bad (and that has been confirmed) but i just need to get it over with. I’m terrible at waiting for things out of my control.
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So sorry for your situation and upcoming surgery. Although I didn’t have any broken bones (which I do believe is far more serious than what my situation entailed), I know what it’s like to sit it out when everyone else is getting it done. You’re smart to channel all that energy towards something you CAN do…upper-body strength is a great thing to works towards. Keep on keeping on ((#fistbump))
Oh, I know you know well! I’m still just so stuck while I’m waiting for surgery – I would hate to do anything to mess up the placement of the bones, so I don’t want to push too hard.
I am sorry to hear about your broken leg. On one hand you feel scared of where this might lead you with regards to disordered eating and possible surgery, but you stand to remain determined to adjust your fitness goals. I understand that this is a difficult time for you and I pray for your healing and recovery.
Thanks, Elaine. There are a lot of layers to whole thing with no guaranteed outcome. I hate the waiting game and I’m trying so hard to be positive through all of this.
I am so sorry you are going through this. But the good news is you WILL get through this. The unknown is always so much scarier than the reality, I know that for sure, but yup, scary. I get that.
I do love to shop — but Black Friday in a store? nothankyouverymuch. Never, ever, ever. Didn’t really find any super deals, and bought zero yesterday, although I have my eyes on a few things I actually need — mostly holding out for Cyber Monday.
Big virtual hugs. Eat to rebuild those bones. Focus on how important nutrition will be to keep yourself healthy. A little indulgence now & then (it is the holiday season!) is fine, but in general, nutrition is probably more important now than it is while you’re active! You can do this. Big hugs!
Mr PugRunner went out for Black Friday one year. He came home completely shell-shocked. I laughed at him.
I’m trying to take it one day at a time, but everything is so out of my control and I don’t do well like that. 🙁
You had mentioned having a wheel chair you could use, right? Maybe you can get your workout on that? Can you roll yourself around the neighborhood some? Like a walk, but in the chair?
I feel for you. I know how frustrated you are and everything seems so awful and scary. But you’re going to get past all of this. Stay strong friend! (But also, accept the help and the feelings. It’s all part of it.)
I do have a wheelchair but the bouncing on the streets is terribly painful. But full stop – this girl is getting surgery on Friday! So workouts might have to wait a bit until that settles.
You broke your leg on my birthday – oh no!
Hope you’ve since found some weights and an eating plan that works for your physical & mental health.
Somehow we were not following one another on IG. I just remedied that – could have sworn I was.
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OH NO!!!! Happy belated – I’m sorry I’m not going to have the fondest memories of that day, but that’s ok.
I saw you just followed me there and was like, wait! I thought we were! IG is weird sometimes.