I know that “New Year New Me” is a bit a trite, and of course, I’m really just the same person I always was. But I’m not the same person. I’ve sustained what we have to call a “life changing event” and while my chances at full recovery are super high, I can’t deny that I am very different.
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Over coffee, I would tell you…
That I am starting the year with tea! What? I had the chance to try this loose blend from Modest Mix, and it was so delicious. I especially love that it was called “Badass Babe”, because I need some of that kind of empowerment in my life right now. The blend was green-tea based with fresh notes of ginger and fennel, making it both bold but also so smooth. You can save 15% on your order with code PUGLIFE if you want to give it a try – there are so many great blends with fun and irreverent names, perfect for you or a tea-loving friend.
Over coffee, I would tell you…
That I have watched so much television since my surgery. Ugh. I am usually way more of a movie person, but it seems like I ran out of movies (or was too fuzzy from meds to focus on the movies I like). We recently canceled our DirecT and went to all streaming, so I’ve started watching all kinds of shows. So far, I’ve competed The Mandalorian, Jack Ryan (season 2), You (seasons 1 and 2), The Witcher and now I’m on to The Boys. Any suggestions?
Over coffee, I would tell you…
That I have been getting out a little bit more, and it’s been hard. Everything is too busy, too loud and too fast and I almost cried in the middle of Chick-Fil-A because I was so overwhelmed. I’ve spent so much time inside and alone that it’s hard being out and exposed. It’s really hard to convince myself to get up and leave the house. I’m sure we can all agree that this is not like me at all, and I’m fighting a hard battle to get back to my normal, adventurous self.
Over coffee, I would tell you…
That my last PT session was absolutely amazing. My PT was really pleased with most of the range of motion in my ankle and we started working a bit more on my strength. I have four more sessions until I go back to the doctor for X-rays and hopefully get approval to lose this boot. He encourages me to start putting more weight on my leg, and I confess that I am so afraid. It’s just not second nature anymore, and relearning use of that limb is going to be so hard.
Over coffee I would tell you
That I am a little afraid of being alone again. The boys will be going back to work and school and that leaves me here to fend for myself. I have work and books and puzzles to distract me, but I will miss Mr PugRunner taking me out for a quick Starbucks run or having someone around if I’m not feeling well. As an extroverted introvert, I was always so very ok with alone time, but this is very intimidating.
I haven’t made any New Year’s resolutions, other than to remain healthy and to get better. That being said, I don’t have much of a choice but to embrace this “new year new me” mentality as I find a new normal and figure out where my recovery journey will take me.
What about you? What would you tell me over coffee (or tea?)
I also remember being afraid to be alone after my injury and surgery years ago. You are getting stronger everyday and you will be ok alone. Netflix I have a few check out the show “you” watch season 1 first. The imposters (3 seasons) was so good! Hope that helps
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It’s just a weird feeling. What will I do all day? I guess we’ll find out.
I’ll have to see what The Imposters is all about.
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I am not a tea drinker but I would drink that tea just because I love the name! 🙂
If you have Amazon Prime, I would recommend Mrs. Maisel. We loved it!
I can understand your reluctance about being alone. You will be OK, though. You are a runner, strong and determined. You got this! Remember, company is just a blog post away. Your running blogging community is here for you!
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The names of their blends are fire!
Everyone raves about Mrs. Maisel. I’m not sure if it’s my genre, but it can’t hurt to try when I’m done with The Boys.
I love this blogging community. Now, more than ever.
runswithpugs recently posted…five post-surgical side effects i didn’t see coming
I second Linda’s recommendation–we devoured Mrs Maisel! Now we’re watching Fleabag. So many shows!
<3
I heard good things about Fleabag too. I don’t think I watched any TV yesterday – I read an entire book instead and that felt so right.
runswithpugs recently posted…five post-surgical side effects i didn’t see coming
I can certainly understand your hesitancy to being alone – I felt the same after dealing with major surgery a couple of years ago. You are getting stronger every day – you’ve got this and we’re all cheering you on!
I’m going to be so loooonely! And who will bring me snacks?
It’s ok, though. I have to rip the band aid off at some point.
runswithpugs recently posted…five post-surgical side effects i didn’t see coming
Yes you know I understand. And I was so much worse off. So if I could, you can.
I hate running I’m pain. But I hate not running more.
I completely understand on both counts. I hope you can get a handle on that pain soon.
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That’s great that your PT sessions have been going well. Really seems like you have been kicking book at your sessions!
I hope so. They are equal parts encouraging and discouraging so it’s very emotional.
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I can imagine it would be so weird and scary to start to put weight on that leg again. The healing time is SO short…probably doesn’t feel short to you though. I hope you do just fine when your boys go back to work/school.
SO scary.
And no, it feels like it has been forever. I know that when you lay it all out, it’s quick, but my days drag. i hate it.
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So sorry you are struggling. I think once your husband is back to work and you realize you can handle it, you’ll start getting that confidence back.
I hope so. It’s just hard knowing I won’t have backup if I need it.
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Recovery is empowering, but also quite scary. I totally get it. You will find, though, that the scariness fades as your confidence returns in doing all the normal things you once did before 🙂
I hope you’re right. I am tired of being scared.
runswithpugs recently posted…five post-surgical side effects i didn’t see coming
I imagine that feeling of abandonment and loneliness when everyone is gone is the worst. You mentioned friends that are visiting you – would they possibly be available?
It would be great if you or someone else could organize some kind of rotation of visitors. That’s what we did with a friend with a broken leg here and it worked very well. Sending a lot of good wishes for 2020 your way. It’ll get better!
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I think we are just in that zone where the imminent crisis is over and people are all back to their lives. I’ll be ok. And I do have folks I can reach out to. It’s just hard to see things moving on without me, or being afraid to try to join in.
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I’ve also recently finished season 2 of You and also The Witcher. If you have Amazon Prime, I’d super super recommend The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel! I finished the most recent season of that last week and loved it. :]
I’m glad your PT session went well and I hope you get to take off that boot soon! <3
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Another rec for Mrs. Maisel. I’ll have to look more into it!
I will NOT miss this stupid boot. I hate it.
runswithpugs recently posted…five post-surgical side effects i didn’t see coming
That tea sounds amazing! I love tea.
I can’t even imagine how hard it must be to be laid up for so long, and the recovery is so daunting, too. Someday, though, you’ll look back on all this.
You’ll get back to your old self, it’ll just take time. And you’ll probably be even better!
The fear of reinjury is absolutely, totally normal. You’ll get past that eventually, too.
Here’s to a great 2020!
I was down for about two months after my tonsillectomy, but for that I could pop pain pills and sleep. I didn’t have to do anything other than that and so it was easier. For this, it’s just so much more work and so much harder. I can’t sleep through it if I expect to run again and therein lies the challenge.
runswithpugs recently posted…five post-surgical side effects i didn’t see coming
I am a huge tea fan so I am going to give that a try! I am glad that you are getting stronger and getting out more now. I know it has been a rough road…so i am sending all positive vibes your way for 2020!!
Awesome! Make sure you get the tea straw too! It makes a world of difference!
runswithpugs recently posted…five post-surgical side effects i didn’t see coming
While most people know me as a die hard coffee person (well, because I am haha) I LOVE tea. If I’m up really early and NOT working out (which is still sometimes the case) I have tea before breakfast and coffee. And always something “interesting” and definitely not standard. My current fave is a ginger mandarin orange blend.
I definitely understand the fear and the feeling of not quite being yourself anymore. I am quite afraid that I will suddenly have that back and groin pain again and I just don’t want that. I think that’s why I’m not quite going full steam ahead yet. Cautious steps…
wish I was there, I’d totally bring you coffee and keep you company.
Ginger mandarin orange sounds lovely.
<3 I am so grateful for my awesome blogger friends.
runswithpugs recently posted…five post-surgical side effects i didn’t see coming
Nthing Mrs. Maisel
Good luck with the transition back to the guys being at school/work and congrats on the amazing pT
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I hope it goes smoothly!
runswithpugs recently posted…five post-surgical side effects i didn’t see coming
I’m sorry you’re struggling. You’re really doing great though, so make sure you acknowledge the gains as well as the lows. I know you’ll back to your old self, and hopefully soon!
I’ve been watching Handmaid’s Tale, but it’s very dark. I don’t recommend in your current state! Will agree with whoever said Mrs Maisel above. I find it hilarious, but it also reminds me of my crazy Jewish family.
I saw season 1 of the Handmaid’s Tale. I loved the book and I loved the show. I don’t know if I’m in the headspace for season 2 without reading the sequel. I’m weird about watching stuff, and I don’t love funny things either LOL! I could probably use some humor in my day.